I need to say the unpopular part first: divorcing him was right. Not a tragedy I've made peace with. Right. I am steadier, I sleep, my kids have a mother who is actually present in the room instead of managing a low fever of dread all day.
What I regret is the eighteen months before it, and the way I ended it.
I checked out long before I said anything. I made the decision privately and then spent a year and a half gathering evidence for a verdict I'd already reached. I was kind on the surface and gone underneath, and he could feel it and couldn't name it, and I let him think he was imagining things.
That's the part I'd take back. Not the leaving. The dishonesty inside the leaving. He never got a fair chance to fight for it, because I never told him it was on trial.
I've watched people use my story as ammunition in both directions. Some want me to say the marriage could have been saved. Some want me to say marriage is a trap. Neither is true. It was a marriage between two people who married young and grew into strangers, and one of us decided that quietly instead of out loud.
If I'd told him plainly, at the two-year mark, exactly what was wrong — maybe we'd have repaired it and maybe we'd have ended it a year earlier with less wreckage. Either would have been more honest than what I did.
We co-parent well now. Better than we partnered. I'm allowed to be glad about that and still be sorry about the method.
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