The Pattern Library

The Patterns

I lived every one of these loops before I could name a single one of them. I'm writing them down so you can name yours faster than I named mine.

These come from my own marriage and from years in counseling rooms. Details are generalized. I'm not naming anyone but myself.

  1. Pattern 016 min read

    The pursuer–withdrawer loop

    One reaches, one retreats, and each is convinced they are responding reasonably to the other.

    See the loop

  2. Pattern 025 min read

    When “peace” means two different things

    You have both been asking for peace for years and neither of you has ever defined it.

    See the loop

  3. Pattern 035 min read

    The scorekeeping marriage

    Two ledgers, both accurate, both being used as evidence in a case neither person admits they are building.

    See the loop

  4. Pattern 046 min read

    The moving goalpost problem

    Every requirement gets met and a new one appears, until effort stops feeling like a path and starts feeling like a treadmill.

    See the loop

  5. Pattern 055 min read

    When repair feels like pressure

    One person's urgency to fix it becomes the exact reason the other cannot engage with fixing it.

    See the loop

  6. Pattern 066 min read

    When sex becomes the scoreboard

    Physical intimacy stops being connection and starts being the metric both people read to find out where they stand.

    See the loop

  7. Pattern 075 min read

    When history swallows the present

    Every current disagreement gets tried as a re-hearing of the worst thing that ever happened.

    See the loop

  8. Pattern 086 min read

    The “I've changed, why don't you see it?” trap

    Real change, unacknowledged, curdles into resentment — and resentment undoes the change.

    See the loop

  9. Pattern 096 min read

    When counseling becomes another battlefield

    The room meant for repair becomes a courtroom with a professional mistaken for a judge.

    See the loop

  10. Pattern 105 min read

    When the future becomes a weapon

    Divorce gets mentioned to be heard, and each mention makes the relationship less safe to be honest in.

    See the loop

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